Study in Despair

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enjoying a day

and suddenly despair

everything crashes down

you don't understand

why all the pain?

why all the suffering?

that a boy did nothing

to be born with a sickness

that racks his body

*you stare

*do you see?

*your father holds you

*would you fall?

*do You understand?

*because i don't

Sin,

there is not a word

the hatred i feel for you

you make me Sick

you made my Love die

i listened to your lies

by grace, i am free

but you want to rip people from me

from my Father

He did not deserve

a death that tore His body

*You gave

*i throw it away

*You sit by my Father

*i am wretched

*You know

*i don't

No

It ends here

I am done

Comments

Halcyon said…
Wow. If you look at it sideways, it looks like it has its own rhythm. Was that on purpose?
June 8, 2011 at 1:48 PM
Jessica Laura Washington said…
Ummm...I don't think I am that smart. :)
June 14, 2011 at 4:39 PM
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