Thoughts on Jesus and Life

I admitted something out loud today to two people. I thought people knew what I wanted to say but I guess not. One person looked at me speechless because she felt the same way. Nathan was also silent but for a different reason. I thought he knew. I guess I can keep a secret, who would have ever thought. All this started at Bible study this morning. We are studying David and today was all about Psalm 19. There are wonderful verses to be seen, interestingly enough we find out from this Psalm that David knew how not to fall. Even more interesting, next week we study Bathsheba. Anyway, verse 12 says, "But who can detect their errors? Clear me from hidden faults." According to Beth Moore the last sentence should really say, "Forgive me for my secrets." Ok...I was kind of stuck. Secrets, me? That would be a resounding no!! I am honest, even more than need be. So what secret is hidden? I mean if David has them than I am sure there is at least one. I don't feel unforg

As a young adult, a lion changed my life. There had never been a clear concept of God until Aslan, and to imagine, to know; that he is so much greater astounds me. My life would be so much smaller without Lewis’s work. But yet, I will never make an impact like he did, even to one person. To really think of his life is to understand that we are all human. He smoked, drank and hung out with his friends; had a wife for a year at the age of 50; just to write children’s books in his later life. He will be one that I will be waiting to see on the other side of those gates, but to live like Lewis is hard, to live like Christ, even more so. Jess

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Something bad has happened. I was angry. Still am sort of. It is more like I have spurts of sadness and then anger. Didn't know that when this happened it would hurt this bad. You grew in my life but I wasn't as honest with you as I thought. I didn't say things because I didn't want to push you away. Well that back fired. You will probably never read this but this song is track 1. I am sorry for not being honest with you about my anger. But I am still not leaving. You don't realize how much I wish I wrote this song so it would really come from my heart. But God did so I don't have to. Addison Road's I Am Sticking With You Come on, it's me you're talking to There's something going on inside of you Don't have to say it, but I wish you would Cause it would be much easier You always hide behind yourself You walk a lonely road with no one's help I hate to break the news You're headed for a fall And if I have to jump Then I'

enjoying a day and suddenly despair everything crashes down you don't understand why all the pain? why all the suffering? that a boy did nothing to be born with a sickness that racks his body *you stare *do you see? *your father holds you *would you fall? *do You understand? *because i don't Sin, there is not a word the hatred i feel for you you make me Sick you made my Love die i listened to your lies by grace, i am free but you want to rip people from me from my Father He did not deserve a death that tore His body *You gave *i throw it away *You sit by my Father *i am wretched *You know *i don't No It ends here I am done

This is from the end of one of Partick's letters: I would write these words of my defense again and again if I could. I declare in truth and with joy in my heart - before God and his holy angels - that I have never had any motive in my work except preaching the good news and its promises. That is the only reason I returned here to Ireland - a place I barely escaped from alive. My final prayer is that all of you who believe in God and respect him - whoever you may be who read this letter that Patrick the unlearned sinner wrote from Ireland - that none of you will ever say that I in my ignorance did anything for God. You must understand - because it is the truth - that it was all a gift from God. And this is my confession before I die. This was Patrick's real heart. I only pray that I would approach life in the way he did; to tell of the good news. I also love his heart for the Irish and his forgiveness for what they did to him. Thanks Patrick for taking a chance on those tha