It's been awhile

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Every time I thought to write I couldn't follow the Mama post. Another death has happened since then, it was a distant one but still hard to watch. I know the older I get the more I will have to see this happen.
God has been very patient with me this past month. I have gotten lazy and scared. There was a fear that if I got too close I would be held responsible, but God told me that there is forgiveness for my sin. He just wants to spend time with me. But I also know He wants His name known no matter how uncomfortable it makes me.

Jess

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