On Kids and Tears

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Ok...so I have had an emotional, wonderful day. First Nathan's mom is recovering wonderfully from her surgery. I love to see God work out of hardship. She was able to walk (with the nurse's help) on the very night after her surgery! She is now being put on liquids. The second thing that happened today is that I had my last official basketball game and I was presented as a senior. As much as I have despised this year of dancing, I teared up. After a year of wanting this dance season to be over, I was sad to leave it. This was three years of my life and now it is soon to be over (depending on the tournament). The third thing was when I was saying a prayer with my kids. We were about to go back in the gym before our performance at half-time. I was really impatient with them today and I hated myself for it. They forgave me thankfully. Anyway, as I was saying the prayer I teared up and almost cried again! And then I said, "dangit", which probably wasn't the best thing to say. The fourth thing that happened was after our performance. As we were walking off and I watched them sit down on the bleachers, I teared up. My heart literally swelled for these wonderful amazing children. They finally, in that moment, felt like my own. They did amazing and everyone cheered, which made them the happiest I have seen them. I love those kids. I can't wait to see them again! We also will be having a pizza party soon!


Oh and yeah Nathan is wonderful and I love him immensely.

And God is so much better!!!!!

Yours,
The Shepherdess

Comments

firebirdsinger said…
A chapter closes, another opens. It's like a line from my mom's favorite movie, "Endings are sad,beginnings are scary. It's the middle that counts." Dance is over, but think about how much more awaits you! I'm proud of you, and I know that you are making such a difference in your kids' lives. Love you!
March 1, 2008 at 8:19 PM
Anonymous said…
Or the line from The Sound of Music, "When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window."

You just have to find the open window. (sounds easy, huh?)

Best Wishes.

The Queen Mother
March 3, 2008 at 6:23 AM
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