Dreams of Taco Bell and Videos of Blind Monks

While I was reading this afternoon, War in Heaven by Charles Williams - an Inkling, I fell asleep. This was very unfortunate because I need to read this book and I also was beginning to enjoy it. As I slept I dreamed of Taco Bell, literally. My boyfriend, a friend from school and a former teacher of mine, went to Taco Bell. Needless to say, I woke up before I received my order. When I had woken up I was hungry and that is what I was craving. Well, I left my room and realized my Mom had cooked so I resigned to eating that. What was I thinking?!?! I RESIGNED to eat my mother's food, which she cooks for her family, and solely for her family because she eats cereal every night. She has this crazy idea that she is fat, O God that you would save her soul! I won't go into to what she fixed but it is delicious. I next started to watch Lord of the Rings, because of course Dr. Jenkins had to talk about Frodo in class. I next decided to look at some blogs and Dr. Jenkins had one speaking about T.D. Jakes and how we could have better lives and our happiness can be found in "things", while in contrast he showed a video of a blind monk from the movie Into the Silence. Not only did this monk talk in the most beautiful language, French, but his countenance was very humbling. He spoke quietly about how he was not afraid of death and how happiness is found in just drawing closer to God. He has what the Bible calls a "gentle and quiet spirit". Oh, the days I wish I could be a nun! I was struck by how I needed Taco Bell earlier and the film clip showed an apple cut up and bread. I am blessed to be where I am, but to give up all of your worldly possessions for a chance to be closer to God would be refreshing. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to become a nun so I could get away from everything and breathe and just return to my nice little house and school whenever I was "finished with God". I am saying that sometimes I wish I was called to that life, but I'm not. It saddens me sometimes to think I probably won't ever live a life like that. To be just you and God. And to have your ministry to be one of giving of yourself. I guess I can always just resign myself to my sheep and the teaching of church history. :)

By the way, my sheep came back. He walked right up to me today and hugged me. I said I loved him and he said he loved me too. O the wonderful gifts that God gives us!

The verse is 1 Peter 3:4
But let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious.

Yours,
The Shepherd