Thoughts on Jesus and Life

My heart is aching right now. One of the children who survived the Lester killings was found with "a knife protruding from his head". Another child's fingertips were cut off. The police think this was done to the children in order to torture the father.....what did they ever do? Five children who had a future. Five children who someone could have loved, who were loved. I can't breathe. I'm light headed. I am at school and as I was walking to the library I saw the scene from The Butterfly Effect, where the father is exploiting the children sexually. WHY!?! They hurt everyday!!!! With no regard to thier own lives adults make decisions everyday that effect them for the rest of their lives, or terminate their lives completely. Whether or not it's a physical death, children die everyday from our words and our actions. It's at times like these that I believe our father will rescue them and bring them to Him. Into The West Lay down, your sweet and ...

Ok...so I have had an emotional, wonderful day. First Nathan's mom is recovering wonderfully from her surgery. I love to see God work out of hardship. She was able to walk (with the nurse's help) on the very night after her surgery! She is now being put on liquids. The second thing that happened today is that I had my last official basketball game and I was presented as a senior. As much as I have despised this year of dancing, I teared up. After a year of wanting this dance season to be over, I was sad to leave it. This was three years of my life and now it is soon to be over (depending on the tournament). The third thing was when I was saying a prayer with my kids. We were about to go back in the gym before our performance at half-time. I was really impatient with them today and I hated myself for it. They forgave me thankfully. Anyway, as I was saying the prayer I teared up and almost cried again! And then I said, "dangit", which probably wasn't t...

I just realized today that a female shepherd is called a shepherdess....DUH! Anyway. I first have a prayer request because my little sheep (a.k.a. my Lil' Stars) are performing on Saturday at our school's Basketball game. I just hope they all can attend and have fun! I just learned recently about all the things that were going on in Denmark. I did not realize it was so bad, thank you American News for informing us. I was upset and I didn't know how to handle finding out about everything. If you don't know, Denmark as been having problems with the local population of Muslims. I felt close to being racist, but the evidence was in front of me that this people group had done awful things to the Danish people. I know that is a very general statement. The point is I didn't know how to face this as a Christian. But luckily I listened to God when he chose to speak through Jon's writing. Jon wrote a devotion on his Jesu Juva site about distractions and God. I...

I know I wrote alot on the past one and I apologize for that. I find, also, that I still need to work on my coherency. Thank you guys for reading. Yours, The Shepherd

As I began writing for this blog, I realized I do not write coherently. It seems my imaginary ADD as infiltrated my writing. I guess I am writing this to tell all of you a little bit of who I am. I am not the best writer. I have friends who will always write better than me and I am ok with that. Two in particular have inspired me to write more. Jon showed me just how important stories are and how God can be found in the ordinary. He has taught me to look beyond what is right in front of me and to look so much farther than my own eyes can see. He shares a love of Lewis with me and in that has helped me find what I value the most in my life. Katie, on the other hand, has opened my eyes into the world of the imagination. She has taught me to look into the deepest inner most parts of my soul to find my own world there. She helps me sift through the person that I am (and Jon helps with that as well). I adore and cherish these friends. Without them my life would be a little le...

I will be the first person to say that we need to have faith in our government. I solely believe that a country will crumble if we don't believe in our government, but I learned something in class today that infuriated me. All of you probably already know this, but since I have only recently come home from my Ireland cloud this year, I don't really know prior American news, especially if it happened anytime during the 21st century. When Katrina hit all of our governments, being Federal, State and Local, argued about jurisdiction. The bad thing was all this was going on while people died. PEOPLE WERE DYING, AND ALL OUR COUNTRY CARED ABOUT WAS JURISDICTION!! Where do we live? This is the country of the free and the brave! This is the country that people have died defending and others have died for loyalty to our government in wars that should have never been started. Something was also said about how some of the responsibility of the clean-up belonged to churches and vol...

While I was reading this afternoon, War in Heaven by Charles Williams - an Inkling, I fell asleep. This was very unfortunate because I need to read this book and I also was beginning to enjoy it. As I slept I dreamed of Taco Bell, literally. My boyfriend, a friend from school and a former teacher of mine, went to Taco Bell. Needless to say, I woke up before I received my order. When I had woken up I was hungry and that is what I was craving. Well, I left my room and realized my Mom had cooked so I resigned to eating that. What was I thinking?!?! I RESIGNED to eat my mother's food, which she cooks for her family, and solely for her family because she eats cereal every night. She has this crazy idea that she is fat, O God that you would save her soul! I won't go into to what she fixed but it is delicious. I next started to watch Lord of the Rings, because of course Dr. Jenkins had to talk about Frodo in class. I next decided to look at some blogs and Dr. Jenkins had ...