Thoughts on Jesus and Life

My heart is aching right now. One of the children who survived the Lester killings was found with "a knife protruding from his head". Another child's fingertips were cut off. The police think this was done to the children in order to torture the father.....what did they ever do? Five children who had a future. Five children who someone could have loved, who were loved. I can't breathe. I'm light headed. I am at school and as I was walking to the library I saw the scene from The Butterfly Effect, where the father is exploiting the children sexually. WHY!?! They hurt everyday!!!! With no regard to thier own lives adults make decisions everyday that effect them for the rest of their lives, or terminate their lives completely. Whether or not it's a physical death, children die everyday from our words and our actions. It's at times like these that I believe our father will rescue them and bring them to Him. Into The West Lay down, your sweet and ...

Ok...so I have had an emotional, wonderful day. First Nathan's mom is recovering wonderfully from her surgery. I love to see God work out of hardship. She was able to walk (with the nurse's help) on the very night after her surgery! She is now being put on liquids. The second thing that happened today is that I had my last official basketball game and I was presented as a senior. As much as I have despised this year of dancing, I teared up. After a year of wanting this dance season to be over, I was sad to leave it. This was three years of my life and now it is soon to be over (depending on the tournament). The third thing was when I was saying a prayer with my kids. We were about to go back in the gym before our performance at half-time. I was really impatient with them today and I hated myself for it. They forgave me thankfully. Anyway, as I was saying the prayer I teared up and almost cried again! And then I said, "dangit", which probably wasn't t...